Random Late Musings

Ok, I love those musical cards. Love them. I just bought a couple because it makes me happy to open them and listen to them. If any of you have pull on this front, let me tell you exactly what I need. I would like a card of the friendship variety that plays the theme song from "Growing Pains". Love me some BJ Thomas. Also, since I am putting in my orders, I would also like some cards of the break-up variety with the song "I'm Movin' On". Love the Rascals and the whole Flatts family. That particular card, however, should only be sold to women as stated clearly in the manufacturer's contract. I have a few more specific orders but I can just wait to see what else they will come up with. I have great anticipation. I just got my Mom a thank you card with the dorky "What a Difference You've Made in my Life". I like the song, but let us come on into the new millennium. However, Ronnie Milsap is a favorite of mine as well. So see, even on the dorky cards, I am still a fan. What can I say?

New topic:

Ran across a great quote of the week:

ATTITUDE DETERMINES ENERGY!

I gotta remember that around Thursday afternoon... Maybe even Wednesday...

New topic:

I have great people around me and I am just thankful for that. I so appreciate the goodness of God in my life and don't acknowledge that enough. I tend to view God's goodness through the lens of my circumstances rather than my circumstances through the lens of God's goodness. I try to put God in my box shaped by unfaithfulness, inconsistency, and unbelief and you know what? He just doesn't fit in that tiny little insulting box I have created for Him. Who do I think that I am trying to put the God of all good things within my parameters? I disappoint myself with this presumption that He and I should be on the same page. Let me restate that: We should be on the same page - it just shouldn't be MY page. It should be on His page and I should indeed be there with Him.

I have got to let the things go that I so desperately want to hold onto. He is good and honestly does not need me helping me with anything. Look what happened to Sarah when she decided to help out Abraham by giving Hagar to him to bring a child into the world. We have never been the same since that day and are still reaping the consequences of that decision. Do you feel, like I do, that it all depends on you? I hate to admit that I am living a lie when those thoughts enter my mind. It clearly does not depend on me and Jehovah God has everything under control without any help from me. It exposes my lack of faith and lack of dependence on Him to operate on those premises.

Father, forgive my unbelief and my unfortunate faithlessness.

Please restore unto me the joy of my salvation and

the faith just the size of a mustard seed.

I do believe that you can orchestrate the planets to revolve in perfect harmony

and make the human body hum with life and

you can most definitely orchestrate my life to bring the most glory to You.

I humbly ask that You do that so that I may honor you with my very being.

Please use me in whatever way You deem necessary

to make the most impact for Your kingdom

on those in my sphere of influence.

Please clean up the ugly places in my heart and

cleanse me with the power of your precious blood shed for me.

I ask for Your grace during this time and know with everything in me

that You remain, as always, at my side, before and behind me.

May my life speak of how great You are at all times.

You are more worthy than anything I can bring to the table.

I pray to be a reflection of your love and faithfulness.

I love you, Father.